rage against the dying of the light (or not)
One of my favorite quotes, and I''ve used it in previous blog post. And while I still subscribe to that philosophy, I also realize that sometimes you let the light die. We auditioned a vocalist for SF last night, and it didn''t go well. Besides the noise from the new bad next door, it was obvious to me that there won''t be a replacement for Venus. What drew me to the band was the combination of the songs and Venus'' voice. And more to the point, it was what Venus *did* with the songs. It moved me. And frankly, I doubt very seriously that we will find someone else to sing who will be able to follow. There are some great singers out there, but they would have to do something *else* with the songs, and take them someplace else...becuase the ground that Venus broke with the tunes can''t really be walked on by others.
And last night I came home from rehearsal angry. I had gotten over the initial disappointment of Venus leaving the band, and in fact think I''m still on good terms with her and might do some future projects. But having an audition last night brought up the feelings of frustration and anger. SF had some AMAZING songs. Period. As good as I''ve ever heard. And while we didn''t yet have a huge following, I think that would come in time...especially as the music got out into the wild. And if not, there was still the satisfaction of making great music. But different people have different views on what is good, and what moves them. In kung fu class we''ve been working on perception, and noting that just becuase *we* think something is real and a certain way, that is no guarantee that others see us the same way.
So I''m going to finish mixing the album and we''ll release it. And I''ve got a ton of stuff for remix possibilities. And my own projects have been on the back burner, so I can pick those up again. Then all I need to do is find some sort of live gig to keep my love for performing live fed (an instrumental horn morph of SF?). And maybe SF will fall back together at some point (especially if the album starts getting a buzz). But I''m not going to hold my breath. Plenty of great musicians and great music have fallen by the wayside...just the nature of the beast.