I'm about ready to fall over. Too much. Uncle. But I can't. Got to get my act together and catch an early morning flight to SJC to dance as fast as I can trying to show the Hewlett Foundation that their grant money to me actually is doing something. Today was multiple conference calls trying to sort out a production that has too many cooks and not enough clarity. I've got to get supplies and pack for Beijing (13 hours on a plane...joy). And my personal life is in a shambles, but I'm trying to pick up the good pieces and trudge forward. Don't really feel much like it though. Putting on a good face I suppose. Fake it until you can make it. I heard "It Makes No Difference" today, and felt all of of that. I had to play "Silver Rain" to try and balance that out, but that brought on a whole other wave of emotions that are tied up in that song. But that's ok...because those moments were sheer joy, and nothing will replace or diminish that. There are few things I know, but that is one of them...
It Makes No Difference
It makes no Difference where i turn
I cant get over you and the flame still burns
It makes no difference night or day
your shadow never seems to fade away
And the sun don't shine anymore...
And the rains fall down on my door...
Now there's no love as true as the love that dies untold
but the clouds never hung so low before
It makes no difference how far I go
Like a scar the hurt will always show
It makes no difference who i meet
They're just a face in the crowd on a dead end street
And the sun don't shine anymore...
And the rains fall down on my door...
These old love letters i just can't keep
but just like the gambler says read 'em and weep
And the dawn don't rescue me no more...
Without your love I am nothing at all
like an empty hole it's a lonely fall
Since you've gone it's a losing battle
stampedeing cattle that rattle the walls
And the sun don't shine anymore...
And the rains fall down on my door...
Well I love you so much and its all I can do
just to keep myself from telling you
that I've never felt so alone before
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Silver Rain
come let yourself be, come see the possibilities
let love take over your pain, and heal to the river of the rain
come and be still, free your mind and your body will be well
and keep this memory, tucked away in your heart for you and me
let my love erase your pain
sun gonna shine, gonna shine again
then we'll dance in the silver rain
can you feel it? come on and dance in the silver rain
its gonna be allright, tomorrow you'll live your dreams in the sunlight
can you feel it? reach up and touch the silver rain
make you feel brand new, the silver rains is falling
let it get all over you
come, come with me, cast your cares and your worries to the sea
and lie here in my arms, and together we'll wake up in the sun
cause only love can set you free, oh yes it can
so take my hand and come with me, and we'll dance in the silver rain
can you feel it? come on and dance in the silver rain
its gonna be allright, tomorrow you'll live your dreams in the sunlight
can you feel it? reach up and touch the silver rain
make you feel brand new, the silver rains is falling
let it get all over you
