And of course there is Grace. I still don't know what/where/how/why. But I'm trying to be ok with that too. I'm trying to be ok with it all. And play life from a bit more of a perilous stance. In order to do that I have to have some faith that even if I hit a wrong note, I just move onto the next one without missing a beat. Because soon the song will end, so you don't want to stop in the middle just because of a mistake. Of course to do that you have to have depend on the rest of the band, as you can't do it alone. Sometimes you do step up and take a solo, but to really groove you need the help of equal yet different partners. When your turn in the spotlight is over, you step back and work to help the song move. Together. Not the same. Not always in perfect sync. But feeling the pulse and finding the groove without thinking too much about it. Because when you think too much, you lose it. You've got to feel it. You've got to let go and live it.